Life lately : King's offer

                                      

Big news! I just got an offer from King's College London. I am just soooo happy! London life for sure next year, I just can't wait. I am now waiting for the other unis to make my final choice but it is already amazing. I am pretty sure I'll get the grades for King's so it is not the thing I am worrying about. 

International Development is something really particular. Other unis only teach International Relations, which is the good point of King's. I am currently looking at all the accomodations, making pros and cons lists ect.. like a psycho. Because yes, I am a psycho. I still have time to search about it but it's actually a good way to procrastinate as I have my winter exam session next week, right before the holidays. Thank you, dear school! I have a lot of horrible maps to learn, chapters and chapters of economics and history and also all this maths stuffs. And I am still sitting in front of my computer watching Youtube videos and looking at online shops. As I have the best parents ever and they are really proud of me, I can choose big presents for Christmas. I don't really know what I want. A luxury bag, a new camera/lens, a new laptop ?.. I am pretty sure I will only be able to make my choice when Christmas Holidays will be over. 

So here is what's happening in my life recently. I have so many musics/readings/movies I have to talk about... But I can't find the time! I hope I will find some during my holidays. 

Hello 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

Life lately : Cambridge Interview

The picture has nothing to do with the article, but it is one of my favourites I have ever made.

the rest of the shoot: http://treizeheuresdouze.blogspot.com

The main thing that happened to me recently was my interview at Cambridge. Yes, I received a letter saying that I was invited for an interview. Can you believe how amazing this is ? I was so kind of shocked. Anyway, two weeks later I took my flight for London and then my train to Cambridge. One night of sleeping, and the big moment happened. I didn't even notice how fast time went. I wasn't even feeling alive. It was a weird feeling, an amazing experience. It was more a discussion than a question-answer thing. They mostly went deeper into the things I have said in my personal statement. I think it was more about the way I explained and justified my answers than if I said a right or a wrong thing. When I think of it, I was so nervous about it! Wow! I have looked around all the websites on Internet about interviews, politics, international relations, potential questions... Everything. I didn't know how to prepare at all, and I was scared that my level of english was weak but apparently it is okay. I spent my life on thesudentroom. (And I still do, because I am wainting for my other universities answers!)

Anyway, this being done I need to focus on my senior year now. Which is kind of boring actually. I am bored at school, I just realised it. Since my head is on universities, I want something more than what I have right now. I want challenges, I want to be captivated... But it is still necessary to work so I should not give up. (I actually felt asleep during my philosophy test last Saturday. I bet my grade will be so low for this one I will never fall asleep again!) I received my highscool transcript today, it was okay. I thought it was a lot worse so if I work more it will be perfect. 

I have deeper thoughts I will come up with. But I think that this article will be interesting to read next year when I will be at uni. I really do hope that I will be accepted to any I applied for in UK. Cambridge (at Downing), LSE, UCL, King's, Warwick. I don't want to stay in Paris. Really. But I actually think I have already done an article about that. (hashtag gold fish memory)

My computer is going to sleep now, and I'm am too lazy to give him an electricity juice. So... Peace out! (I need to stop saying this. Thank you Bad Girls Club!)

Why did I even publish last post ? 

Anyway, I still feel like writing. My blog has no structure but no one is reading so I shouldn't care about that. But if someone is reading I don't think that should change anything my brain has no structure either. 

I am brainstorming too much. But this is since I was a little girl so I'm used to it. I personnaly think that brainstorming is important because you're more laid back and you think more when shit happens. I am a very "zen" person, I think a lot before I act, and I never act crazy. People tell me that the more you think the less you live but I don't think so. Thinking helps you to make less mistakes. But I admit that sometimes you should forget a little bit your mind (with moderation) and act with your heart. And it is when you do that that real things happen to you. I don't mean things like "do cocain" but for exemple tell the person you love that you do even if your brain tell you no to. Crazy stuffs never really happened to me. Okay I lived funny stuffs but no "wow" stuffs. But I don't search for it, if it has to come, it will. It is when you don't search that you find. I would like to point out something though. It is not by laying in your bed that you will have the crazy life you want to have. It is like in the famous drawing (I don't even know if it began with a drawing but anyway) were it is said that "Where the magic happens is out of your comfort zone." And I think that it is pretty much true. 

That's it for today I guess. 

Fuck it

I wrote a post and blogger didn't save it. I hate it I feel pissed off right now. It's just so annoying I don't feel like writing anymore for the moment. Maybe later, maybe tomorow. As a reminder for myself in case I decide to write it again it was talking about : 

- how The Perks was inspiring me

- the tones of work knocking me out

- why my biggest wish by now is to get in  my unis in England 

Time capsule

Sleeping Lessons  - The Shins

Hello guys, how you doing ?
So I created this blog only a few weeks ago, and I already feel bored. I think it's probably because it doesn't really look like me, and also because I think it's useless the way it is.
The thing is, last night at school I had a deep, serious, and powerful discussion with a friend of mind about life, future, ambition and happiness. We were on our way to the showers and this discussion came out very easily. So we sat there for one hour and half, talking like grown-ups. To be honest, it was the purest moment of my month. We had the idea to write a time capsule. We'd both write our actual thoughts, our projections of ourself in 5,10 and 20 years, give it to eachother and then wait to meet again. But later I thought: I have a blog, and Internet is one of the thing that is normally going to be there for a long long long time, so why not use this as a time capsule ? Why not write here everything ? My thoughts, my fears, my dream, and my life in general ? I don't think that talking about things I bought is very important for me. Being a beauty/fashion blogger is just not for me. And I think it's better like that. I prefer food and music. (lol) I'm still going to talk about my -way too boring- life, and I think it's going to be more "personal".
And it's probably the reason why this blog is entitled "the exposed diary".

Music crush - Keaton Henson

Hello guys, how have you been lately ?
Basically, weather is getting colder and colder, and I feel more and more tired and sad for no reason. I don't know if I'm the only one feeling especially sad during autumn and winter. (I hope I'm not alone, please tell me you're like me!)
I don't want to bother you with my sad thoughts, it's NOT cool at all! If you don't feel like I do, you need to pop out and dance and sing and laugh! (don't worry, I'm not suicidal either, I still laugh!)
Anyway, this post was supposed to present you my music crush. Music is all my life, basically. I sleep, talk, drink, breathe music. Seriously, I can't imagine where I would have been in my life if music didn't exist. (and food too... Even if I know that if food didn't exist, i wouldn't have been obsessed with my - too high - weight)

SO. Let me introduce you to one of the best piece of talent I've heard. (for broken, lost, misguided, mindfucked, painful or quiet souls)

Keaton Henson is a English folk-indie-rock musicians, and also a poet and visual artist. His songs are simple, but powerful. His music, lyrics, and fragile voice simply get deep into your ears, and souls. It's the kind of music you listen too when you're in a mind-blowing mode, when you want to be alone.
When I listen to him, i just want to hug him and want him to hug me at the same time, and tell me that everything is going to be okay.
He is a pure diamond. In the same way that Bon Iver is (and if you get me started on Bon Iver, I'm never going to end my "he's-basically-my-music-god speech". So don't do that!).
He has two album yet: Dear... , and Birthdays. And both are amazing. The only critic I might do is that both are almost the same, but it's still a pleasure for your ears to listen to them.

So here are a few songs I love, I hope you'll like it as much as I do.
Tell me what you think about it!

A photoshoot called "Rain".

Hello cookies!

Last saturday i shot the pretty Luna. The weather was awful, there was thousands of tourists... But we made it! I asked her to wear a total black style ans she came up with the idea of the black lipstick. It is one of my favourite photoshoot so far because i realised how much I evolved since the start of my "photographic journey". 

the pictures are in my other website: http://treizeheuresdouze.blogspot.com 

I hope you'll like it! Please tell me what you think :)

(useless post)

Last week Charlotte, a girl I met by facebook asked me if i could do some photos for her agency so as usual I said yes and met her in the "Centre Pompidou" which is an exhibition center. I took a few pictures and she took some pictures of me too (even if I hate being taken in photographs). Here are my two favorites.

 her, by me

me, by her

A photoshoot called "Boy"

Daria is a fantastic girl I met last summer in Malta. She cut her hair when she was drunk there (with the help of friends) and as she liked it she kept this hairstyle and dyed it in blonde. Her short hair inspired me for a "act like a boy" shoot. I wanted to do something different than my pretty-girls-with-long-hair usual shoots. This is why I sent her an inbox and she quickly accepted. So we went in a stadium with a skatepark and other pitches. I was pretty cool, she came with her best-friend who helped us for some stuffs. Even if we almost got killed by skaters and there were thousands of kids everywhere, I'm proud of the result!

the pictures are here: http://treizeheuresdouze.blogspot.com

and here are some "backstage" photos with her best-friend:

Life lately.

Hello cookies, sorry I didn't post earlier but I feel really weak and tired this days. I don't know if it's because the weather is getting colder and colder, or if it's because highscool is already killing me, but i don't feel amazing at all.
Anyway, here are some pictures I took with my Iphone during the week. (yeah, food is half my life)

I BOUGHT MYSELF A DUMMY + ACCESSORIZE & FOOD CRUSH

Hello cookies, it's me again! Yesterday, I went to the pharmacy and i bought a dummy. The pharmacist asked me how much years old were the baby and i answered "6 months". So he gave me this lovely blue "Mommy I love you" pacifier. Hahaha, I imagine is face if he knew it was for me! You probably think I'm weird. I can understand... I mean.. I'm seventeen. The reason I bought this is because I'm a very stressed and nervous person sometimes, I constantly need something to chew to calm down or get my mind out of something. I started to eat chewing-gums, but i ended addicted to that and I had to eat 10 (and more) chewing-gums a day, and it is very unhealthy. Yes it is weird to be addicted to chewing-gum, but it is the same as people who bite their nails, or creak their fingers... So I won't be able to get out with my dummy because everyone in the entire city is going to think I'm weird, and I won't be able to use it either at school because my classmate are going to laugh at me so bad, i don't want to explain my problem a thousand times! but at least I will use it at night and at home, which is okay i guess.

I also bought a lot of hair clips like this with flowers, spots, stripes and some others made of pearls. I've never been a girly person but I have the feeling that the girl essence inside of my is growing up by the time. I'm starting to take care of my skin, my hair; my clothes, to wear jewellery... A bunch of stuffs I didn't do before. I have never been a tomboy, far from that, but I never considered myself in a feminine way even if I always loved wearing dresses. I am even happy to realized how much progress I did in my feminization because I really like this flower and pink stuffs.

And here comes the best part of this article: the food part! I found these delicious biscuits a few months ago, but I feel like it is necessary for the development of your culinary path to know about them. On my way to school there is this shop called "HEMA". It is a dutch shop for daily products with very low prices. Food, body care, make-up, stuffs for the house.. everything! But I mostly go there for food, actually. The best thing I found were these amazingly delicious waffles. It is two biscuits stuffed with a delicious caramel-vanilla-cinnamon-butter cream. It is seriously fantastic. I'm sure you'll love it (if you forget about the calories!!!)
This shop only exists in Germany, Belgium, Netherlands, France and Luxembourg but if you leave in another country i'm sure that you can find this type of biscuits anyway!

A photoshoot called "Pauline"

Hello cookies! Last saturday I met a very nice girl from Vinted for some pictures in Paris. (Vinted is a website to sell clothes, but as it has a forum I asked if some girls were able to pose the time of a few pictures. She is the first I met, but I planned a lot of other shoots for the upcoming weeks!

If you want to see the pictures, click this link! They are in my photography blog. Hope you'll like it!
http://treizeheuresdouze.blogspot.com

Sebo Specific, by Yves Rocher

Hey hey hey! September is back, and it means: start of a new year. And who wants to start the year with a bad skin ? Nobody I guess. So this is why I went to Yves Rocher to look at their products, and as many of them were in sale, I thought it was a good occasion to buy new stuffs for my skins, especially my face which wasn't very great after all the travel I did. I made my choice for two products (+ the make up remover that called me at the checkout). So I bought these two products for a total of 15 euros. Good deal, huh ? I chose the "Deep Cleansing Foam Cream" and a "No Blemish Care". 

- The Cleansing Cream: If you expect it to foam, don't buy it because it doesn't at all. But it's a very good cleanser, with little granules inside. These are very good for exfoliating your skin, but I don't think it is good for a daily routine day and night and moreover if you have a sensitive skin. This range of product has another cleanser so I think I'm going to try it for my daily routine and use this one twice or three times a week.

- The Creamy Care: I love it! It is leaving your skin very soft, pleasant to touch. Very light, you can easily use it during sunny days without feeling greasy. But don't use it as a moisturizing cream, it is only here to control your blemishes. If you wan't to moisturize your skin, please add another cream on it. The first one is so light that it won't be heavy, don't worry! They say that the results will appear after three weeks/one month, but actually I can feel it after three days. (I think it is because my skin was terrible!)

I think that after two weeks if the results get better and better I am going to complete the range because there are lots and lots of products! I love it because it doesn't attack my skin as other products do and it is still efficient. 

So if you're looking for a skin care for your face I recommend these for you. It is cheap, and good! (But the saleswoman told me that it wasn't for severe acne, just for people with few blemishes.) 

Travelling: Dubai - Shopping session

hello again!
So today's post is all about shopping (one of the best things on earth, even if it doesn't beat food yet). When I was in Dubai, I went to the mall for a little shopping session. I didn't have the choice, the mall was right next to my hotel! It was pretty cool, my feet hurt a lot when I came back to my room, which means it was a good day of shopping!

 (i'm in love with the short I'm wearing in this picture by the way! I bought it in Shanghai, in a great shop named Lily. I'm telling you that just in case that you planned going there!)

here are all my shopping bags. You can't actually see all of them but I'm sure you can imagine how much there are!

I'm not showing you all the things I bought because most of them are basics, actually. The ones right above are my great deals and favorites of the day.

1: a great dress from New Look in sales that cost me around 15 euros I think. I really love this kind of dresses which emphasize waist. This one reminds me of the movie Mama Mia, for some reason. It's a nice spring/summer dress.

2: a maxi dress as i love it! I bought it at Marks and Spencer for 20 euros. When you will get to know me more you will see that i love maxi dresses. And this one was PERFECT! I love the prints, I love the color, I love the cleavage (even if I don't have one), to be clear I love everything about that dress. It is also a great summer dress. I think I should travel back in time because I bought all my summer dresses in the wrong period.

3: and here goes another summer thing! A cute suit with little lambs in it. I'm not really an "animal person" but i couldn't resist when I saw this one. It was over cute! I perfectly capture me wearing this on a bike cruising the streets of somewhere in the sun. Yeah, I'm sure you can capture yourself too!

4: my lovely heels from New Look for 12 euros each. At this point you can't imagine how much I love sales. This shoes are just so pretty and cheap, I HAD to buy them. (even if I don't especially need this two colors) If other colors were on sale I think I would have buy them all. You never get enough shoes!

The day's favorite: three mini body sprays from Bath & Body Works. First of all, if I could have bought the entire shop I think I would have. I love perfumes, sprays and creams so much... The first body sprays I have ever had were from Victoria's Secret. But as I'm going there only for their sprays I asked myself why not going to a shop made for this ? So I went to B&B W (writing the entire name is too long). It is cheaper than Victoria's Secret for the same quality of products. I took the mini sprays because there was a very good deal and because I couldn't decide which one smelled the best. My favorite one is the "Malibu Heat" one. It smells like summer, beach and cocktails!
I found one the website what it was made of:

• A west coast blend of juicy pineapple, California oranges and creamy coconut
• Mid Notes: Orange Blossom, Lily of the Valley, Coconut Water
• Dry Notes: Creamy Coconut Milk, Vanilla, Sandalwood, Sunny Musk

But if you don't like sugary odors, don't worry! There are plenty other types of fragrances. Whatever your type of fragrance is!

This is all for today, I hope you're ready for the comeback of september! Me I'm not ready at all so I don't think that the beginning of my senior year will be amazing. But I hope yours will be! xx

Travelling: Dubai.

Life lately have been CRAZY. I have so many things to talk about! I am writing all this back home, in Paris. It feels so good to be back home, after three weeks of traveling. So I have been to Dubai for two days (it was a stop over) and it was amazing. The hotel was fantastic, food was magnificent, and our trip to the desert was great. 

I didn't even captured all the buffet but it was very very very massive. Every kind of food. Arabic, english, american, french.. Everything. I ate so much, my body complains but my mouth was happy. Now i need to think about a diet! I ate pancakes, muffins, waffles, toasts with salmon, fish slices, a fantastic onion bread, bacon (beef stripes precisely, as it's a muslim country) and some arabic food I don't know the name of. Well... that was a lot!

So as you can see I have been to the desert, which was an amazing experience. Someone came to pick us up from the hotel and there we went! The road trip was thrilling! The driver was so crazy, we were going up and down on the dunes. It was way much better than Space Moutain in Disney Land (or any other roller coaster)! And when we arrived the view was SPLENDID. Seriously, it is one of the most beautiful landscape I have seen in seventeen years of existence. Except the fact that they were a lot of people with us in the tour, i felt like i was the only girl in the world. (hello Rihanna). Anyway, after this the driver took us to a little campus.

It was LOVELY. The little coffee tables, the beautiful carpets and the good food. (again). Everything was included in the trip price so we could eat and drink as much as we can (and don't worry, I did!) It was a typical arabic buffet, divided in a vegetarian and a non-vegetarian part. There were cool things as free henna tattoos, walks on camels or the amazing performance of the belly dancer. I was so jealous of her! I wish I could move like her. She did amaaaazing stuffs with her body, I think it was the best thing of my day actually. 

So as you can see it was an amazing journey. I have lot of other articles to post, I hope I'll have the time because I'm getting back to high school next week (senior year, woupwoupwoup) so a lot of things will be going on, but I will tell you more about this soon.

Adios!

Travelling: China. - Part II: Shangai

(you can see the pictures here: http://treizeheuresdouze.blogspot.com)

Hello it's me again. So I went to Shangai for 2 weeks, to work my chinese. As I have planned to pass a test in chinese for my senior year exam, I needed to do some intensive class. It's actually one of the main reasons of this trip. It was very interesting but 4 hours a day of chinese... it's a lot! As I had this class I was really tired in the afternoon so we didn't do a lot of visits but we did a cooking lesson! I'll post about that later! Shangai is a very modern and international city. A lot of shopping malls, high buildings, international restaurants and there is air conditioner everywhere it looks like Los Angeles with a lot more chinese people. We did a ballad in "The Bound" which is a path in front of all the big building which is very cool to see by night with all the lights but it was very crowded. (I think it is because it was on the Chinese Valentine's day). 

The best thing we saw was the "Chinese Venice" it was amazingly beautiful. We went on a boat and visited this city in a perfect timing as we arrived at the sunset. The color of the sky was reflected in the water and the inhabitants turned on their red lights. It was what we can call a "pure moment". It was just perfect. 

I mostly enjoyed my trip to China (the cons I talked about in my last article excepted), but I'm glad to be far away from chinese. As I understand 1 word on 100 it is very tiring to hear and try to read it all day long. Anyway, as it's a very diverse country if you have the opportunity to go there it is better to visit it on a tour which show you the different sides of this country. I think you need to see all the historical monuments of Beijing as much as the progress of new cities as Shangai or Hong Kong. It is a interesting country, mentally and culturally very different from western cities even if they try to westernize their cities, they are still in some way sticked to their culture. 

Travelling - China. Part I. Beijing

Hello guys, or better: ni hao!

I'm just back from an amazing trip in China. I was supposed to post my journey daily but blogger and many other platforms as Youtube, Facebook, or Twitter are blocked (which was, to be honest, kind of hard to live with as I'm pretty much an internetcoholic.) So anyway, i travelled with my family to China. We did 1 day in Dubaï before going there then we did Beijing for four days and finally ended our trip in Shangaï for two weeks. Now I'm in Dubaï again for three or four days.

(you can see the pictures here: http://treizeheuresdouze.blogspot.com)

Beijing is culturally and historically a very interesting city to visit. We visited ones of the main places: The Tienanmen place, the Summer Garden, the Forbidden City, and the Great Wall. Believe it or not, i climbed the great wall (I have a "I climbed the great wall" tee-shirt to prove it.) Even if on the top i couldn't feel my body anymore, i couldn't see anything and I thought that I would die up there all alone surrounded by a thousand of chinese people. BUT I SURVIVED. Anyway, the monuments are amazingly beautiful a full of history. I learned so many things about the chinese culture, it is fascinating. The only problems during the visits were the crowd and the heat as I'm not really a "sun person" it was very hard for me. But it worth the price, really. Even if you are a lazy *bip* like me. Actually there is not much to do except visiting in Beijing. Except maybe go to restaurants. (yep yep yep) Beijing is a historic city, very sticked to its culture. I mean it's what I felt when I went there. They are not very used to strangers coming, they were acting weird when they saw us. They were staring at us, taking pictures. I was very uncomfortable and I felt like a monkey in a zoo. It is probably because I'm a black person and they're not used to see colored people there but it didn't feel good at all. It's was the main con of my trip for Beijing and Shanghai.

The best part of this trip was a little ballad at the back of a bicycle. I don't know how to say the proper name in english but in french it's "cyclopousse". It was very nice to go around the old city and see the little houses, the little bars and water pipes lounges. I think it's the hype neighborhood, it seems to be so cool if I lived in Beijing I would have spend all my afternoons and evenings there. And I've been told (and I saw) that life in China is not expensive at all if you consume local goods. You can eat big (and  good meals for around 4 euros, and even less. The expensive things are the imported goods and the accommodations, even if it's out the city. 

It's all i have to say by now, i'll post another article about Shanghai. For the moment I'm need some rest. 

bye bye cookies!

My new baby: Jerry the Pennyboard.

It's been a long time since i wanted a Pennyboard, mostly because of youtubers hanging out with it. And now... tada! My baby is here. He is the cutest Penny ever! I'm seriously in love. It's easier to ride than a normal skate board and it's smaller so when you're tired to cruise you can easily hold it. I started to ride it but as I'm scared and I don't want people to laugh at me in the street (specially true skateboarders), I don't do a lot of cruising but I'm going to try it more often. Anyway, if you want to try skateboarding but you're a little bit scared, my advice is to buy a Penny Board, or a skate of this type. The price is around 120 euros and you can customize your board if you want to.
Here is the link of their website: http://www.pennyskateboards.com/

Life, I.

I was so bored today i decided to have a walk in "Le Marais" which is one of my favorite area in Paris. Little streets full of vintage shops and a lot of good restaurants. I was enjoying my ballad so much that I didn't realize I walked for almost 5 hours. (Please don't do that, except if you enjoy your feet being on fire). It was a very good day, all by myself. I think it is good to be alone sometimes. Today I realized how beautiful my city is. The street art, the new green places, the architecture, the passengers, the lovers, the bridges... everything. Many tourists only go the Eiffel Tower, the Champs Elysées ect... But there are thousands and thousands other places to see in Paris. Even me who grew up here I discovered a few places I didn't know, recommended by some Yelpers. (if you don't know Yelp it's a great recommendation platform for every kind of things, you HAVE to check it.)
Enough talking, here are some pictures:

+ And what about the food ?

French pastries, cappuccino, melon and I discoverd a tropical fruit jam. Lovely!

This is a nice ice cream from a gelateria named Amorino. I chose Vanilla and Nut. Very very good, almost as good as nuts ice cream from Italy (the best i've ever eaten). 

 I also tried a cupcake from "Bertie's cupcakes". It's a lovely cupcakery (if this world exist) but the cupcake wasn't amazing. The cream was too sweet for me and the cake was dry. The price didn't worth it at all. But if someone propose one, you can't say no it's too cute.

The "pain au chocolat" from "Pain Quotidien" is a pure delight. Crunchy on top, mellow inside. Le Pain Quotidien is a bakery and also a brunch restaurant with bio products. I'm not especially a "bio" person but I can tell their brunch is amazing. I'll tell you more about it if I go back there.

 My discovery of the day: the Blue Keld. It's a zero calories pear flavored sparkling water and it's very good. Good when you want sugar but you already ate too much as i did!